Here a small collection of random "studies" that are just not worth posting elsewhere, this less about the quality and more about their nature. Most of then are just, "hey, do this work"? Sometimes it does some times it doesn't. I'm seeing how this blog handle posting multiple pictures in a gallery fashion.
I care and I don't care a lot about those things, I talked with someone about it at some point I think and is kinda silly of me, I will admit, still, is worth for the organization alone I think. I also have A TON of those, so I will be posting when I feel like talking about shit.
Today I was talking with an Anon about some stuff about censorship, eventually the conversation become oddly political, the anon in question had quite the absorbing points and had some pretty solid dialectica and argumentative behind him, I'm a pretty slippery snake my self but I kinda allow him to do his stuff because I thought it was interesting. He basically was really good in to bringing the worst scenarios and points of every argument I made, maybe because I prefer to stand with ethics over morals and he was using this as an tool against me? Well, I really didn't care, they were solid points and it's good to have someone bringing then up to you, we can be so immersed in our opinions of how to make the world a better place that we don't realize maybe we are making it worst. Is really common I think, I for example try to help people online, is stupid and never work, something I noticed is in my attempts to bring people up and just trying to make then see the good sides of things always end up backfiring. I'm REALLY GOOD at being a bad person and REALLY BAD at being a good person, so it makes sense.
He said something really interesting before we had to cut our bullshit short because it was shiting up the entire board with meaningless discussion, about how my opinions are nothing more then attempts of self preservation. Now I can barely remember most of the arguments, but even at the time I was not certain if he was right or wrong, I just don't know, I don't consider self preservation something bad, you need to protect yourself at times, even more now a days were the slightly misconduct or non-PC idea can in theory "ruin" your whole life. But in a way I kinda disagree, I disagree because I've been trying my hardest to at least be sincere without caring about this sorta of stuff, this dumb blog and even talking with not behind the anonymity mask is one of my attempts against my better judgment of whole I should deal with this situations. I mostly doing so people can see it's okay, that they can be themselves, no matter what they are or who they are
Is dumb, it will backfire at some point, I fully expect that, but if someone out there see this as an opportunity just to find the courage just to be in piece with himself, is worth in the end. I wonder how genuine I must sound like when I say things like that, I'm not certain myself if I'm being 100% sincere with me, I have a tons and tons of intentions behind every single thing I do, I like to think most people are like that. But I used to worry too much about that in the past, if insincere good is really good. But an anon, oddly enough, also teach me that independent of our rooted intentions, good is good and is all that matters, but it took me a while to get what he really meant by that.
Also. here it is a photoedit (not a drawing) of Duke from Resident Evil the village to truly bring out his soul:
My spirit animal.
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